What's truly important...

Over these last couple weeks I've had a lot going on. The full time job that I am supposed to be starting tomorrow has been put on hold due to the upset in the economy. The project that I was supposed to be going to work on has been put on hold indefinitely and so has my job. The real estate market has died off and the desperate sale of my house that I have been hoping for isn't looking too promising, hence the house that we decided to build in March may very well be somebody else's new home soon. I'm trying to learn to take it all with a grain of salt. There is a lot of money at stake but it is pretty much out of my hands. When we began the whole process in March never once did we think the world economy was going to crash and that I would be out of work. It's amazing how times like this can really make you assess your life and what is truly important. My mom came to visit last week and I got pretty upset talking to her about the situation and she said to me "Amanda, it's just wood on dirt" and I thought to myself yea wood on dirt with a lot of money involved but as I got to thinking she made me realize a lot of things. At the end of the day I'll still have a roof over my head, food on my table, my son will still be healthy, and I will still be in a great marriage. It's been a long struggle but I've realized that things happen for a reason and if this just wasn't meant to be for us right now then I should just let it go. My 16 month old son has no idea that anything is wrong and he keeps living his life. He would be just as happy living in a cardboard box as he would in this house or in a fancy new one. When I look at him and realize this I wonder when I allowed my life to be so complicated and to get to the point where I've lost site of what truly is important to me. I might not be starting work for a big company with a fancy job title tomorrow but my other full time job as 'Mom' is 10 times more rewarding and I get to do what I love in my spare time, taking portraits of great people.

Here are a few from a session that I had about a week ago.

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