On my blog... Of course!!

I will be the first to admit that I'm not always the quickest to "get" things. There are times when I'm told a joke that I sit there looking blankly wondering what is funny about it. Wondering if I've missed something. Usually it's just me over thinking something to the point that I'm so far gone I will never "get" it. I spend hours lying in bed at night thinking and thinking. I think about absolutely any and everything. Sometimes I think so much that it's 5am and I am still thinking instead of sleeping. It is probably one of those things that if you asked my husband to name one thing that Amanda does that drives you crazy and he will probably say think. The first reaction being wow that was rude but trust me if your brain worked overtime like mine, you'd understand. Last night I managed to get L to sleep through the night. It was great to know his sleeping schedule was back on track but at 3am I was still lying there thinking. Thinking that I should probably be taking advantage of his sleeping but it wasn't happening. And with that... I'm tired.

On another note, after receiving a message from H to go and look at a new website she had created for the Relay For Life event I felt instantly moved to send her a response to my thoughts. I have actively participated in the Relay for Life numerous times in Fort McMurray. I have always found the survivor lap to be an amazing and victorious moment. Watching everyone that has fought and beat the illness which has deceased so many. Of the entire event the part that has always tugged at my heart and moved me to tears is the lighting of the luminaries. It gives me chills and really makes me stop and realize how many have lost loved ones from cancer. My Grandfather was very ill with prostate cancer a few years ago but managed to succeed and every year since both of my grandparents participate in the Relay For Life in Newfoundland. The day I opened my email and saw the pictures of my Grandfather doing the victory lap I felt such pride and happiness that he, just like all those I had seen before, got his chance at victory. I have always feared cancer, feared it's ability to sneak up on people, feared it's ability to quickly ruin lives. Last weekend I found out a friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer 2 weeks ago. He is 30 years old and has a tumor in his chest and was rushed into chemo immediately. It is scary and can change lives that quick. It makes me happy to read about other people sharing the same passion to help fight this devastating illness. H did an amazing job on her website for the event and I no doubt appreciate every bit of effort she and everyone else put into raising awareness and funds to ensure that I am able to keep my Grandfather and my friend for quite a few years more.

A